Büyüknacar was a picturesque village perched high in the mountains of southern Turkey until it was effectively wiped off the map by catastrophic earthquakes that killed tens of thousands a month ago.
Little is still standing in the settlement that was home to 2,000 people before the first 7.8-magnitude struck on Feb. 6, its epicenter just 26 kilometers (16 miles) to the south.
The temblor and its aftershocks, including a 7.5-magnitude quake, claimed more than 45,000 lives in Turkey and 5,000 in neighboring Syria.
It killed 120 people in Büyüknacar, an agricultural village surrounded by rugged mountains and lush valleys filled with oak and pine trees.
“Only four or five houses are still standing, but they are all damaged,” said Ziya Sütdelisi, 53, a former village administrator.
“We were always told that our ground was solid. Nobody warned us our village was in peril,” he said.
Few know what will happen next.
Turkey stretches across some of the world’s most active fault lines and is no stranger to big quakes.
But none has been as damaging or deadly since Turkey became a republic after the collapse of the Ottoman Empire 100 years ago.
Ziya’s wife Kıymet said the villagers felt relatively safe at more than 1,000 meters above sea level.
“Then everything crumbled in a few seconds,” she said, surrounded by the rubble of stone and concrete homes.
Survivors who stayed behind now live in tents, grieving and reliving the horrors of being woken in the pre-dawn hours by a jolt that upturned millions of lives.
Sütdelisi is still haunted by the rumble of the moving ground, which swung buildings like pendulums in the dark.
“It was as if 10 trains were passing by simultaneously,” he said.
The villagers said it took six days for help to reach them from neighboring cities and towns, forcing families to claw their way through the rubble by hand in search of trapped loved ones.
They drove the injured to nearby hospitals on their own because ambulances could not reach them across damaged, snow-covered roads.
“For six days, we were 40 people in a makeshift tent. It was cold and snowy,” Kıymet said.
Every family now has their own tent. A handful of container homes are arriving that villagers plan to assign to the elderly and most vulnerable.
But nothing will be firmly decided or change for Büyüknacar’s survivors until officials conduct ground analyses to determine whether people will be allowed to stay here and rebuild.
The few remaining buildings could tip over from one of the thousands of aftershocks that have rumbled across Turkey in the past month.
“We would not dare go inside the houses,” said villager Hulya Morgul. “They are like our enemies.”
Facing a difficult re-election in May, President Recep Tayyip Erdoğan has vowed to rebuild the entire damaged region within a year.
Like Sütdelisi, Erdoğan also called Turkey’s mountains “firm ground” that his government will focus on developing in the months to come.
“When planning new settlements, we will steer our cities from the plains to the mountains as much as possible, to firm ground,” Erdoğan said after the quakes.
Nurten Morgul, who is married with two children, said it was hard for her family to simply pick up and leave.
“The source of our income — our fields, our animals — are all here,” she said.
Ziya Sütdelisi also struggles to focus on the future.
“It has been a month but we cannot think with clear heads,” he said. “It will take a while to come to our senses.”
United in grief and perseverance, the villagers have formed new bonds, which offer a glimmer of hope.
“We have all suffered, we are helping each other,” Sütdelisi said with a smile as a barber from nearby city of Gaziantep offered him and two others free outdoor haircuts.
“Life has to go on for our kids,” he said.
© Agence France-Presse